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i don't even reconize my life or me anymore RAVING-Stop

hi, its been a long and incredibly fast 4 months give or take since i had three devine opening with lola on the phone. it has been long since then because it feels like what has changed in me and for me would usually take yrs. everything excellerated at light speed, even faster then light speed.. my days and weeks have been a blur.. and today i don't even know whos life i am in.. lol, i never thought i would or could get to this amazing, calm, peaceful place, even being in the middle of a life that reallly in many ways hasn't changed alot, but there is so much i don't remember. i haven't been very good at righting things down to track whats different, but when i check IN with my lrg self... or go with in.. i don't reconize what i find.. so much is missing and thats sooo cool.. the most recent thing is that i noticed how resentful i still was after all these 20 yrs of wrking on myself, and i can't find it! its just changed. i also started a new job and on day 1, i was making one wage and on the 2nd day my wage went up $5.00.. i was like wow, wow, wow... my life is so cool now... my next adventure is to learn to drive a standard vehicle.. i used to be so terrified of things like this.. its the small things/challenges (stimulation) that makes things exciting and when i accomplish that then i can do something else.. and a bunch of those adds up to alot of living, and then i can say i can instead of all that i can't i used to say. life is very exciting. my relationship with the devine has totally changed.. when i say thank you.. i have to immediatly say thank me.. cuz there is no outside myself god thing. i have recently started seeing me in u.. i can look at someone and i see the same light in them as is in myself. we r all one. it has become remarkably easy to feel things cuz i just give up fighting life/devine. i can find myself slipping into small self thinking, and change gears immediatly.. even the tough stuff doesn't feel so tough and its all ok. i have so much to appreciate that i don't have to focus on anyone thing but sit in the midst of pure appreciation:) and know that i deserve all of it. i say all of this in the midst of my son going into emergency surgery tommorow to check for lymphoma. and i am scared, i feel huge change happening... what else can i do but let go. and not take score. i have been doing the first aid for children for about 2 weeks and this is what showed up.. i have no thought about any of it. but i still feel soo very blessed and i suppose the feeling i am feeling is not aloone, carried through, i feel like i am in my power, in a powerful place. Signing off, being with it all:) Adrienne
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leanne

thanks:) yes in time:) Adrienne

Adrienne

Adrienne, I found 16 17 to be the toughest years with my own son (20 in march) all that grunting, anger and attitude, so much so that l moved out lol. l rented an apartment at the beach for 4 days and just relaxed and enjoyed it. The look on my sons face when l told him l was moving out was priceless haha. Sometimes a break is all that is needed, it does get easier, they get through it, and you will too, all will be ok and work out in divine time. Take this time for yourself enjoy some pampering and be gentle and soothing with yourself. I have a much better relationship with my son since starting Divine Openings a year ago, and you will too. The best thing l did was put up copies of the Instrument panel around the house, especially the one at the kitchen table where we have our meals. I would casually say 'oh lm feeling here right now' and then l'd ask him where he thought he was and it just opened him up to seeing the scale, when l was in a lower vibration l would share where l was, and he would see me doing little things to help me feel better and move up the panel till l had bounced back (which doesnt take me very long now yay). Sharing the Instrument Panel with our children is one of the best life skills we can teach them in my opinion. I'm sending love and a Divine Mother Hug to you and your son and see you together again soon. Much love Leanne (Divine Openings Giver)

Annon

thanks for your kind words:) Adrienne

is the energy ever moving!

well, it turned out to be a cyst.. wow i was so releived... and my son may have just moved out!! 16 yrs old and hes very angry... stuff is moving in a very powerful way... hes ok from his surgery... not wanting to get into a story of it all... i am shocked at the way things are unfolding after starting the first aid for children, i did it because i wanted to have a better relationship with my son and become more of what he needs by it perhaps shifting my vibs that were blocking the flow of our relationship and i suppose it is but not in ways i expected or thought it would. i trust that it all has purpose. he may be back in a few days, or he may not. i had a thought earlier that perhaps its shifted things in a way where he is no longer a vibrational match with me and thats why he's gone! i gave him a choice and he chose to leave. i can't go back to the way it has been that is what has changed within in a really big way. and i feel very supported by life (devine energy etc).. i am in shock.. i feel in limbo cuz i am in a place of unfamiliarity again in regards to myself.. things r changing so fast .. i rememebr he has chosen this too on a devine self level befor he came to be, i know he will be ok out there wherever he is. i also feel he will come back. i know where he is for a few days but if he stays out i may not after a while. i feel flat and then i feel what i feel and i be with it. and its all ok, i am bombarded with feelings of intense okness and calm and centeredness if that makes sense although i also feel the other feelings that come with being a mom and letting ur child go, and knowing he has got to do his thing so life can help him grow and see and exspand. Gratful and appreciative Adrienne PS very odd to have (in my view) such contrasting feelings/emotions in the same place virtually at the same time!! i suppose i am finally letting it in:):):) Adrienne

Adrienne

Dear Adrienne,
Sending you and your son love and a Divine Mother hug and seeing you in the powerful place that you talk about.
No, god no, don't take score other than you felt a need to turn your focus to your relationship with your child, so you started the 1st aid course and energy started moving in a big way. Trust it to be a good thing. Bless you for having opened to Grace, chosen to do the sessions with Lola, for knowing and feeling you're "not alone, and carried through" and knowing how to be with the feelings that flow through now.
The powerful love, appreciation, connection to the Divine is helping your son, not just in this instance, but always--and inspiring the rest of us.
Love, Annon (Divine Openings Giver)